Tuesday, May 10, 2011

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD.  How long has it been since I posted on here.  Sorry to my loyal followers.  I have been so busy trying to get things finished around my house and in my life..... but everytime i start a project I come up with a brilliant idea or some new exciting project.  My head just feels as if it is about to explode with inspiration.  I have decided to get back on track with my weight lose and have decided to start a blog on my Dr Phil profile from about 6 years ago.  Not only to cataloge as I re read his book that I have but hopefully to inspire or encourage someone else who faces the same rollercoaster that I have been on for over half of my life.  I guess in a way I have decided to GET OFF.  I don't like this ride anymore and it is taking up too much time and energy.  I want to enjoy my life...... not be defined by my size .  Here are my 2 entries into my blog. 
 
08.05.11 
I was sitting at home staring at the walls when i glanced at the bookshelf and was drawn to my copy of "The Ultimate Weight Solution".  Although I have still been losing weight and doing well but am finding that my weight lose is defining me.  When I am motivated and looking great I feel FANTASTIC but once I sway slightly from my routine I get down on myself and give myself a hard time.  I find it so hard to get back on track and the negative thoughts are so debilitating to my goal.  I found strength in the fact that my weight does not define me and the person that I am. 
            I have to re-align myself with the seven keys.  I no longer want my weight to be the last thing that I think of before I go to sleep and the first thing that I think of when I wake up.  I have to be proud of the hard work that I, and only I have done to get from my heaviest of 123kg to 96.5kg Even though it has been a long road I did it.  I know I still have a road to travel to reach my next goal of 85 kg .
           This blog is going to be my daily journal of my re-reading of the seven keys and my continuing journey.  I hope it inspires someone to live their life and let their weight lose become a habit and not a factor that defines their life.


08.05.11
The larger pic of me was taken in Jan 2004. The day after my wedding. The next was taken in March of this year.


10.05.11
Day 3     
             I am really enoying rereading the 7 keys and I think that it is rather surprising how much of it I have retained without actually realising it.  I think that it is one of the most important things to be humbled by just how much you have changed from old habits and still have the ability to retain those changes. For me I am very very good at highlighting my failures and searing them in the forfront of my memory.  I am not so good at realising the amazing things that I have done and crediting myself for these.  I am also not good at accepting positive feedack.  I am fine with negative feedback and more often than not I am alot more comfortable with recieving it opposed to positive comments. 
             This is very much the first key and the one that i struggle with.  Realising this is the easy part but I have to work on it maybe more indepth than i had originally thought.  Wow this blog is very cathardic.  Just as I sit here and type my mind is clearing and my path is becoming clearer.

Ideas/Inspirations in my head
I thought that I would use my blog as my notebook to jot down all the inpirations, ideas and projects that are spinning aropund in my head to give me a drawing board.
  •  I love knitting my new hats and havbe thought that it maybe a good idea to make a little extra money on the side
  • Spend some time with my wonderful Nan and get all her recipes, tid bits of avice that she has given us growing up and pics of her and my grandfather who I did not have a chance to meet and putting all of this into a book that our family can share and hand on to our future generations.  They are two wonderful people who derserve to live on for many generations to come.
  • Get back into my photography.  It brings me joy and am so inspired.  I have been taping a series on the Lifestyle channel called "How to take stunning pictures".  There have been some great tips that I would love to put into practice.
  • Take up drawing
  • Write the story of my life and the fabrics that made me the person that I am today.
  • Knit for the future that I am hoping to have.
  • Learn How to crochet.

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Saturday, December 4, 2010

My Journey this Week......

..... Has been eventful to say the least.  I am currently in Dunedin spending time with my Sister, Brother in law, Niece ( Jessica) and Nephews (Kain and Ethan). I drove to Wellington on Friday with a quick stop off to my georgous grandies in Palmy North.  Finally got to meet my lil Ricki.  She is adorable and a full credit to her daddy and her mummy.  Also cannot say how proud I am of her big sis and bro for how they have helped mum and dad out.  Love you Tajai and Zarian.

   I arrived in Dunedin yesterday and it was so great to see them all.  They have growen up so much. We went to Angel's End of Year Concert for her Tap.  I was very proud of her. Here are some pics of her performance.



  



We have spent today just snuggled up on the couch watching movies.  Just being an Aunty with them has brought me such joy.  I do miss the time that I am away from them.  We have a very busy week ahead of us but I will try to get back on here to share my experiences with you all. 

Friday, November 26, 2010

Katy Perry - Firework

This is my song of the moment.  I heard it in the car yesterday on my way home from Dee's and it felt as if it was saying alot to me.



About Me

It is 4.30am and i am wide awake.  Usually I would be watching TV or playing on facebook but I woke to an overwhelming urge to  write more.  When I opened the screen up I was blank lol.  I went in to edit my profile and was answering the section about me and when I looked back it was turning into a novel.  Hmmmmm  .... This would make a great blog.  So below is my "ABOUT ME" novel to share with you all.

About Me


I am a 35 year old women, for 2 more weeks, who would say that she has done nothing her whole life but when I take the time to look back It has been so full.  I have an eclectic tastes in all aspects of my life.  I love my spiritual guides although I feel that they would love it if I got off this roller coaster of drama that I live on and give them a chance to help me find myself.  Just to slow down enough to hear their guidence.  I have this vision of them sitting there ever time I race into something rolling their eyes and putting on another pot of coffee cause this is going to be a long one LOL.  My interests are so eclectic that I find myself confused as to where I am going.  I have just started a new venture in the last month that has given me some new found focus.  I went to visit Dee and she mentioned about a new thing that she was doing this month called "Art everyday Month" for November 2010.  I came home and grabbed my camera and i was off on my new adventure.  I am sure those close to me had an angel eye roll as I explained my new "thing".  Yip the 'here we go again' one.  Now it is almost the end of the month and I have taken pictures all month with a  topic of "Nature and Me".  I have had this particular camera since May this year and have rarely used it.  It used to live in a cupboard or a draw.  Now it lives in my handbag.  Luckily I have always been inclined to carry a suitcase around.  I have so many ideas for more months ahead too.  I did not think that i would be able to embrace it as i have.  Here are a few of my favourites......






Castlecliff Beach......Someones very hard work.


View through the back window

Yeah thats me.  Not too flattering but took it of myself lol

My "Tiger" Tatt.  Keeps me focused.


Mum and Dad D's Garden


Mum and Dad D's Garden



Mum and Dad D's Garden


Mum and Dad D's Garden


Whanganui River Bank


Sids Rose

Sids Rose


Whanganui River Bank


Bason Reserve

Bason Reserve


Bason Reserve-Homestead Garden


Bason Reserve- Homestead Garden. 
This is the exact space that I married my best friend.  Even though we have since gone our seperate ways he is still very near to my heart.  Dreams are possible!!!!!!!


Queenstown - My new love in the South Island


Queenstown - My new love in the South Island


The Waterfall that we found on our road trip


Queenstown - My new love in the South Island


The bar at the World Bar, Queenstown.

Queenstown - My new love in the South Island


Kowhai Park, Whanganui. 
Represent the road ahead for me.

Queenstown - My new love in the South Island


Sculpture at the Minus 5 Bar in Queenstown.


Kowhai Park, Whanganui              




Thursday, November 25, 2010

Begining of a new road .........

..... Today I visted my friend Dee, Shaughan and lil Maddy.  The last few days I have been low and I needed to get my butt out of the dark place that I was in.  Spending time with them inspired me to get back on the "horse".  Dee helped me set up this blog so that I can share with you all the road that I will now travel.  The road behind me is in need of some serious mending with patches of smooth places but also some rather big potholes, side streets and forks in the road.  Along the way I will share some of the stories from my past as I also share my journey into the future.